When I got the email from my publisher that my first novel would be released to the public on June 1, 2015 it was like an internal stopwatch began. 8 months, 9 days and 13 and a half hours until my name is on the cover of a book that people can purchase. Readers, possibly from all over the world, can download my eBook beginning in less than a year. My story, Lover's Oak, that I have countless years, hours and tears over will finally be out there for the world to see. It's both exciting and terrifying in the same breath. It's a dream realized. A dream I've had since I was ten years old. But on the other hand I'm petrified about others reading my work and then deciding they don't like it or giving an awful review. Because I can't avoid bad reviews. It would be great if I were the type of person that lets things roll off my back--but I'm not. I internalize, obsess and thoughts of inadequacy haunt me. That is what took me so long to submit my novel in the first place. However, now that the stopwatch has begun, I have no choice but to be along for the ride, wherever that takes me, through the good and the bad.
Has anyone else had mixed emotions about releasing their book? I should be thrilled and thrilled only--no worries, stress or fears for me. People would kill to be in my shoes right now and I am happy and know how blessed I am for my success at getting even this far...but putting ones' work out there for everyone to see and judge is just flat out scary. It will also be a lot of work: the promotions, PR, advertising, blog posts, interviews, etc. will overwhelm me, I'm sure, especially since this is my first experience with all of this. I hope those who have been through it will give me advice, a listening ear and their friendship as I stumble through the process of releasing my first novel to the public. The stopwatch has begun...whether I'm ready or not.
Author of romantic suspense with a new novel coming soon!